Wellbeing

WW and Me

By Shani Petroff

I joined Weight Watchers to lose weight. What I expected was to see the numbers on the scale drop, but what I found was a lot more.

The power to stick with it. There are weeks in which I struggle, weeks where I’m not perfect with my SmartPoints® budget, and weeks when I don’t move enough. But through it all, I haven’t given up. I have stuck with it. When the going gets tough, instead of running away, I run toward things like Connect (I personally love #transformationTuesday), the articles on the site, and other people on the program. It’s a nice reminder that I’m not alone, and that we all have hurdles, but we can overcome them.

Slow and steady. I’ve never been one of those people who lose gigantic numbers on the scale. In fact, sometimes I see more results in clothes than the number blinking in front of me. I’ve learned/am learning to accept that. I’m not in a race, I may not be the fastest, but I’m in for the long haul and want to make lifelong changes.

Why I eat. I’m also seeing patterns of when I overeat. When I’m stressed, bored, or procrastinating, I tend to snack. (I’ve been keeping healthier options around so that I no longer waste SmartPoints values on food I don’t really want.) But it’s made me really evaluate why I do things. My two biggest weight-loss setbacks came with issues of the heart. After a breakup that really hurt me, I ate—and I gained. That, I suppose is not such a shocker, but it made me look at how I responded to disappointment, and I’m working to change that habit in the future.

Surprisingly for me, my next setback was when things were going great. I fell in love. I met a guy I adored (and still do). We grew closer, said the magic I-love-you words, and have a happy relationship. I thought all of this would make me lose weight faster, but it did the opposite. I found myself eating more. I really had to stop myself and look at what I was doing. I realized there was a part of me that was scared. Scared (from false and damaging narratives) that in order to get the guy, you need to be thin. Unknowingly, I was testing him, and sabotaging myself. He’s never said anything that made me uncomfortable about my weight, and yet, for me, my size was at the forefront of my mind. It was almost like I was challenging him—okay, you like me at this size, what if I go up one? When I realized what I was doing, it was pretty eye-opening—and scary. My weight shouldn’t have this kind of influence over my thoughts. I want to lose weight to be healthy, not because I think I need to look a certain way.

Getting healthy. One of the biggest things for me was that wakeup call that health is the main reason I’m on this program. I have moments, where I forget that, and moments where I’m reminded just how crucial staying healthy is. Weight Watchers is teaching me habits to keep my heart healthy, and for that I am grateful.

What are some of the things you’ve learned on the Weight Watchers program? You can find me on Connect @shani!

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