By Shani Petroff
I was always a good student. When I put my mind to something, when I tried, I did well. For most subjects, I could be counted on to know what I was doing and help others. It was the same for my job. I caught on quickly and could be relied on.
It’s a good feeling, but it’s the opposite of the one I have when I take a class at the gym.
There, I’m not a prized pupil. I’m the one who just can’t keep up, doesn’t know what’s going on, and feels embarrassed by it all.
But you know what? I’m not giving up.
A studio not too far from me was having a sale on classes I really wanted to try. However, I’d heard the rumors — everyone who belonged there was in super shape, judgmental, and stuck up.
I went anyway.
And, yes, I was by far the biggest person in the class, the most out of shape, and the most out of my element.
But the instructors and people I spoke to were incredibly nice and friendly. And during the class, everyone was concerned about themselves, they weren’t watching me.
It was my first class and it’ll take more for me to feel comfortable, but I’ll get there.
I’ll swallow the feelings of insecurity and push aside the doubt. I’ll erase the judgment and preconceived notions of myself and others. And I’ll do my best.
Then maybe one day, someone else will walk into the studio I’m in and think, “Wow, they are all so in shape and good at this. I hope I can get there someday.”
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