Hey, I'm Anna, aka @annieshappylife on Instagram.
For some reason, I've found this really difficult to write about being a WW Gold member. But then I thought about how I felt when I started my weight loss journey, and my reasons why, and I thought actually, this is it! This is my 'why'. I'm enjoying every second of summer with my beautiful family, I can chase my two children around the park. I can put on a pair of shorts, or a pretty sundress and feel confident. I have that healthy lifestyle I craved!
I'm still very much finding that balance. But that's part of the journey, and I'll keep practising. Because you can't be perfect 100% of the time!
When I started WW, I struggled a lot with anxiety. My reason for starting was to be happy in my own skin and be a healthy, positive role model for my children. How could I teach them to be confident when I didn't love myself?
I thought that losing weight would fix everything, 'I won't be anxious when I'm slimmer', 'I'll feel more confident when I've lost weight'. Honestly? It didn't. It helped in lots of ways, yes my confidence grew, but the biggest thing I've learnt is that it's not just about what the number is on the scales.
Learning self love is a fairly new concept to me. Even after getting to goal, I'd stand in front of the mirror and pick out bits that I didn't like. I'd still have days where my anxiety would get the better of me and the horrible little argument would start to play on repeat in my head, telling me that what I'm doing isn't good enough. Leading me to either binge and comfort eat. Or deprive myself, striving for unachievable perfection.
I still have these days, and it's truly horrible. But I recognise that these days happen more often when I'm not taking care of myself, so I'm learning to be kinder to myself.
When I look in the mirror now, I try to focus on something I like. My waist is defined, even if my stomach has stretch marks from carrying my two gorgeous babies, and rolls when I sit down, but I'm proud of it. My legs are toned, even if they still wobble a little a the top, from my new found love for walking.
Trying to be mindful of these things was really difficult at first, I was so used to focusing on the negatives. But I think the term 'fake it till you make it' really works! Keep reminding yourself of the bits you like, and you'll start to believe it!
My husband Jamie has really noticed a change in me since I've been doing this, and is so proud of my new found confidence in myself.
I wish I'd known during my journey how important it is to love yourself every step of the way!
Self care is so important, which is why I love the WW approach towards wellbeing. I can feel terrible, but after a long walk to clear my head, or a soak in the bath to relax, I feel ready to love myself enough to make good choices again. I also find cooking really therapeutic, so I love spending some time alone in the kitchen making a delicious healthy meal, or baking a delicious cake.
I've also just discovered that practising Yoga makes me feel so positive, I've been following YouTube tutorials by Madeleine Shaw, and have really noticed a difference.
I've been a Gold member now for almost two years, and this feeling of happy and content is what it's about for me. Enjoying delicious healthy meals with my family. Looking in the mirror and feeling good about my 'perfectly imperfect' body. Playing with my children, running around after them effortlessly. Dressing up for date nights with Jamie. This is it. This is goldflex!
This is the happy, healthy life I dreamed I could have.